Support

Trolling the web for support groups for me... I found an amazing thing.  There is a website for people just like me who are having or who have had the same surgery I am having.  I guess I never thought I would find a place with people I could talk to about my health problems and situation.  I'm having a rough patch right now in my preparation for surgery.  Despite the fact that this surgery has been a though on the table for many years certain members of my family are discouraging me.  I wish they could understand my point of view.  After all this time, all this extra weight I have carried  I just want it to go away.  I know it will not be easy, that this is just a new tool in my battle with weight.  I just feel that now is the time for me.  After all the attempts I have made, I just want this monster inside of me to go away.  The never satiated, never satisfied gaping maw inside of me needs to go away.  I've given up soda, and caffeine too,  I'm sure these changes have to have taken effect, but it is never enough.  Cut out this, stop eating that, the only thing that worked ever was the summer I didn't eat for two months straight except when watched.  Even then I was still overweight in a baby fat 20lbs over sort of way.  I'm sick of fighting.  I want to wake up in the morning and see beauty, instead of a few pretty features buried behind mounds of fat.  I hunger to be thin and beautiful.  It may be vain and horrible, but that is what I want....  That's all for tonight. Goodnight and blessed be!!!
Always,
Kris

p.s.
The great message board community I was talking about at the beginning of the post is www.verticalsleevetalk.com !